MEL (On Hold)
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Last published Sun, Jul 26, 2020
There are different ways to lose your mind, to lose your sanity, to lose your marbles, to go crazy, anything you feel like calling it really. I lost her, she slipped out my fingers, I searched and searched just looking for her, my past nothing but a blur. What to do, they try to keep me from seeing her. I met them, they told me someone could restore me to what I was, that he could bring her back to me. So here I am, cause he did.
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