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I Really Messed Up, Guys: A Supernatural Self Harm Fic

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Reads 396,652
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Parts 43
Time 6h 41m

TW: SELF HARM IS DEPICTED. DO NOT READ IF EASILY TRIGGERED. It is acted out in one of the chapters, when it's up I'll put a warning at the beginning so it can be skipped over and add a summary of what happened at the start of the next chapter. 
      Also if you need help or distractions for ANY mental illnesses or behaviors please text GO to 741741. I've done it several times and they're really great people. 
      
   Casey is Sam and Dean's younger sister. She's 15 years old, 10 years younger than Sam and 14 from Dean, and has been on the hunt with the boys her entire life, but struggles with depression and is currently in a battle with self harm, but the boys don't know and she's terrified for them to find out. Will they lock her up? Will Dean scream at her? She hopes she doesn't find out...

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