A Dizzy Little Violence
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Ongoing17m
Last published Sun, May 7, 2017
You can't stay happy forever, depression is a rollercoaster of emotions. Up, down, up, down.. and up.. and down. And it seems no one can help. At least. I thought no one could.. not until I met him. Blue Boy..
Heyo. I'm Alexandria, chronic depression, chronic insomnia and I love food. Welcome to my life.. of yeah
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