Kalopsia
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Last published Thu, Jul 5, 2018
trigger warning
[every part is unrelated. this book is a collection of those poems and one shots that contrast my other optimism based book Chase Life.]
please refrain from reading this book if you are not an adult/ experiencing depression and/or anxiety.
other warnings:
• violent/sexual/abusive themes
• suicidal behavior
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