"Dan.. What is this?." Phil asks as he holds a little silver blade in the palm of his hand, with tears in his eyes. "I-its nothing." Said a nervous Dan. And in that moment Everything Changed . Dan Howell and Phil Lester have been best friends for many years but what happens when Phil finds out that Dan has been keeping secrets from him, but little does Dan know. Phil has a secret all of his own too that could change everything.. (warning: mentions of self harm, abuse, suicidal thoughts and attempts, and eventual Phan and smut of course)