I Am Afraid Of..

I previously read somewhere, that one should write what she is afraid of writing, those moments which she want in life to happen again, or may say would never want to last..
It was some part of you hidden inside me still that I can't just let go. Those unending desires, those wishes of mine I had to live with you.. you were always there on my mind when we were together and even when we fell apart.. you were on my mind when I was afraid of losing you, and even then when I finally gave up.. you were on my mind when my heart loved you so much, and even then when I felt like moving on.
You were there on my mind when you were my shield and then too when you finally left.