The Lone Nerd

As a 16 year old girl, going into my last year of high school I covered my school image in school work and loneliness which proved to achieve just that, loneliness. I was undesirable, even as a friend, I limited myself to a strictly, business-like relationship with my peers, who most of which, I considered obscenely infuriating.

I covered my worries, my woes, my fears, my doubts, in schoolwork and studying, convincing the world I had a clue, when, in reality I was trying to convince myself, not them. Thus, sustaining my loneliness and image.

I never really had craved social attention, it was just not my norm to seek approval or praise, I was used to the regular "teacher's pet" insults and it never really bothered me. after my arrival at that school I had no friends. I didn't even take the time to remember people's names seen as it wasn't like I was going to ever need them anyway. I neglected speaking for the most part so other than to talk to my mum or when necessary, I didn't talk to anyone. I wasn't mute it was just no one talked to me so I didn't talk to them.

Evidently, my life was was a tediously repetitive cycle of school, work, school. The only human thing in my life was my relationship with my mum, she was my everything, my family, my best friend, my idol, she provided everything I needed and I was only ever truly myself with her. I transformed into a regular teen with her and we would chat for hours on end talking about everything and nothing. She and my home were the only things I could find comfort in.

Until, I met Jake, the one to break my shell.
🔹I need a cover if anyone will make me one.🔹