Breathe me like oxygen.
- Reads 111
- Votes 0
- Parts 15
Ongoing1h 18m
Last published Sun, Sep 17, 2017
"With him I was drowning, without him I couldn't breathe"
----------------------------------------------------------
He doesn't think he's mental but everyone that matters to him does.
His parents.
His sister.
His friends.
His boyfriend.
He is, mental that is, he suffers from PTSD due to an accident involving his father. His PTSD caused him to develop extreme anxiety and depression. He self-harms. He's been suicidal. It all started about a two years ago. After he came out as gay. After the accident.
The only person who truly thinks he's sane is himself. But then, doesn't everyone who's crazy think they aren't?
He's thinks he's completely alone in this.
He's not.
But the person who saved him, wasn't who he thought was going to.
Trust is sacred and his has been ruined too many times.
And the one person who only wants to be there for him might not get a chance cause others have shattered his heart and ruined his faith in humanity.
----------------------------------------------------------
" I don't matter" I screamed, my body falling to the ground shaking with the sobs I begged myself to contain. Of course I couldn't. Why would anything work for me.
His body shadowed mine as he sat down pulling me into his chest, his fingers trailing over the body he knew so well "You matter to me"
All Rights Reserved
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
The Boy Who Lived Again (boyxboy) (COMPLETED)
What if you committed suicide one day. After just one horrible day that set you off. You know, the bullies and the mean classmates who want to help but don't. And your crush refuses to help you one night. What if another woke up months later with no memory? You don't know who you are, nothing seems familiar. All you know is that something draws you to a boy who died months ago right before school ended. A lot of people care that he is dead, they feel responsible. Another boy catches your attention and you can't help but feel something for him. What if he's the answer to your problem but he won't talk about the dead boy? What if he does? Can you win over his trust and figure things out or will meeting him awaken something in you, you may or may not have known? or seen coming...Complete
Loving Zach (MxM)
Sometimes you need just one person to make all the difference in the world. And even better if you get a whole family of them. Zach's been living in his car for a month now. He has nowhere to go, no job and his money is starting to run out. Life has been rough on him, growing up in an abusive home and later in life becoming the center of a vile man's attention. Just as he thinks his life is never getting better, he meets the charming business owner Dean. Zach is a broken boy and has nothing to offer to a successful businessman who's so handsome he could be on a magazine cover. But life has a way of putting the right person in your path even if you didn't know you were on the one. This is a finished, full length (80k words), slow burn romance about learning to trust, falling in love and healing after life has beaten you down. !Trigger warning: This story deals with child neglect, child abuse, domestic violence and rape. I wasn't overly descriptive about these situations, but they are still a big part of the story. !Explicit sexual scene. Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.Complete
ORIGINAL:The Boy With A Touch Of Cancer(BxB)
"Leo pinned me against the wall with his hips; his hands gently gripping my wrists, keeping my arms above my head against the cool brick behind me. His beautiful, hazy blue eyes -that had turned straight quicksilver, again- were filled with such an intense, carnal desire I couldn't even look into them, so I looked over his shoulder. I saw a small group of kids from the group standing out by their cars who would easily be able to see what we were doing...or at least what Leo was doing to me. At that moment, my mind started wandering to all the things that I could be doing to him right now...but I stopped that train of thought, immediately, as it started heading to all the wrong places... All the dirty places... All of those places involving a very hard part of my body... I glanced back at Leo; his gaze was still as intense as it was before (unfortunately). He smirked at me and said confidently, "You can't ignore me forever, Ethan. You're eventually gonna fall for my charms..." Ethan Carter was focused on 2 things. 1. School (obviously) and 2. Getting over ex (it's proving to be, harder than he thought), but now he has to add dying to that list, and suddenly having feelings for a boy (which has happened once before, but Ethan tries to forget it). Leo Malone makes Ethan feel things he's never felt for another guy. Leo's sweet, patient, and understanding, the only problem is, he's a guy. Ethan tries to ignore the fact that his heart flutters every time he sees Leo, or that he can't ever stop thinking about him; but if having cancer has taught him one thing, it's that, "You have to live in the present, as you may not have a future."Complete
Mine
" what's wrong," he asked, fucking tears, now I have to answer him " nothing I'm fine," I said he scoffed " I didn't ask are you okay but obviously your not fine," he said I roll my eyes at him why can't he leave me alone " I'm not in the mood to talk Alex," I said drinking "you're never in the mood to talk to me," he said inhaling the smoke of his cigarette Alexander and Elliot they are alike but at the same time different one is deadly when you get close other one crazy when look deep into his soul Everyone are scared of Alexander and tries to stay away from him still girls and boys throw themselves at him but he has his eyes on Elliot Elliot is hurt but still smiles and laughs with his friend everyone in school fear him every girl wants him he hates gays but when Alexander stares at him he feels something and that scares him because he never thought he would these things towards a man So what happens when Elliot is not just attracted to Alexander but something more and Alexander notices that it's not lust he has for Elliot will Alexander and Elliot both heal each other and maybe love? What will happen in Elliot's life when Alexander enters? I know its sounds a cliché Highschool story but I promise it's not , I love BoyxBoy books to read and I thought I should write one, this book has a mature scene and little violent. For those who don't like bxb books it's okay you can read my other books and those who like bxb books read it it's going to be awesome Start: 4/12/2019 End:12/3/2020Complete
Echo of the Past
A few months ago, I bought a mug with gold gilt. On sale. Not a gift either nor because of an occasion to remember by it. Just plain, pretty mug for 15PLN. I drank my coffee from it since. I spat loose tea leaves into it. It never felt particularly significant. An ordinary object. Only when I lost it, I realised its true value. I sat comfortably at my desk one evening. Looking at my phone, I reached to take my song-text notebook. Trivial situation. My clumsy fingers were unable to avoid the mug. They allowed it to topple over, to slip from the desktop. Even though I did not see the split-second occurrence, I felt the pressure of unease. My head painted the trajectory of the fall on its own, the shattering, spillage. The loss. For a millisecond I still had hope, that I would be able to catch the mug, that I would be able to avoid what was about to happen. But I knew I was headed for failure. I don't have any superpowers. I only scalded my fingers. I looked at the mug's new shape for a long while, at the shattered pieces. At the spilling liquid. Our adventure came to an end. Irrevocably. I won't be drinking coffee from it anymore, nor spit tea leaves into it. Well. I shouldn't be sad, it was just a regular mug, just like thousands of others. I grew to like it, it kept me company throughout hundreds of warm drinks. I lost it. I hate this feeling the most. In the moment when I am losing something, I stop in my tracks, I hold my breath. It is always a very intense moment. A short one, but one that gives me the tight unpleasant feeling in my stomach. The feeling of loss is always accompanied by hope. Silly and naïve. Making me believe so strongly, that I can make it. That I will still be able to catch the mug mid-flight. When the feeling is entering the body, crawling into me I realise, how important it was to me. Whether it's Nivan or a stupid mug with gold gilt.Complete
Where Am I? (boyxboy)
Dawson has had it rough. Not as bad as some, worse than others. He lives in constant secret, heart ache and pain. After his parents died he under went a transformation, rendering him unrecognizable. After three years of pain, cutting, and one suicide attempt, he returns to his hometown. As Dawson hides his identity, it will become harder and harder to seal away the truth when faces from the past start revealing themselves, including his gorgeous ex best friend Alec. Only Dawson isn't the only one with secrets and when a lie reaches Dawson's ears, it will take all he has in him to protect the one thing he has left. Himself. Dealing with depression is hard, and Dawson will have to learn it's not something that can be handled alone. He'll have to open up his heart once more, even if it risks him getting hurt, if he wants to achieve happiness. ---------------------------- This is a trigger warning, to anyone that has problems with self-harm I recommend you don't read this as there are some graphic scenes. Also, this is a boyxboy story, so if you don't like hot steamy action between two boys, this is not the story for you. If you don't like it you shouldn't even be reading this anyway and I will not tolerate hate. You do not choose your sexuality and no one else has the right to make someone feel bad about who they are. Also, if any of you are having problems, or the story has triggered you, please inbox me. I love to hear from my readers.Complete
Lover, You Kill Me. (In A Good Way)
"I love you." I blurted out. Silence. My cries stopped and now I was sniffling. Please say something. Please. "Say you mean it. Please." I heard the desperation in his voice and it took me by surprise. "I mean it, I fucking love you. I can't hold it back anymore Seidan it's driving me crazy." I blurted more thoughts out. And collided did our lips do. If that makes sense. "I love you too. So much. Not just.. not just oh love you, I am in love with you Knox." Seidan said between breaths and kisses. "We can do all this when we're actually alone." I said with a laugh and I felt his hardening problem on my thigh. "Fix it for me.. please. I need you." Seidan breathed out which almost made me moan right there. "You gotta stay quiet." I said and locked the door. Single bathrooms are good for sex but I couldn't do that when there's children and my boyfriend's friends outside this bathroom. ___________________ Seidan Carmello has been wanting a lover for so long. At his halloween party, he finds himself in front of a boy from his class he's never noticed, Knox Ledger. Except, Knox wasn't having it, and rejects him 3 times from there on. Seidan feels hurt and determined to make Knox his, despite not knowing him very well. In the end, it'd work out. In Seidan's eyes. 100%. "Lover, You Kill Me. (In A Good Way) is my first ever finished and published story on Wattpad! I am very nervous but excited to share it with people. Please enjoy and read the exclaimer chapter for more details! ~ Yours truly, @bemyheroineComplete
(bxb) Siren Song of a Savior (Siren x Human)
I had always been taught that humans were cruel creatures with the intent of dominating the Earth. I never thought I'd meet one, let alone form an attachment. "Stay. Please, Collin. I don't want you to go back." He bites his lip, his flat, human teeth digging into the soft flesh. His crystal blue eyes rake over my figure before he entwines his fingers with mine. He nods. I pull our hands to my mouth. "Thank Poseidon. I don't know what I'd do if you left," I murmur. A small, breathtaking smile graces his lips. This quiet, beautiful boy might just be mine. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Collin has been ridiculed his whole life because he doesn't speak. Fueled by his traumatic past, he can't bring himself to open his mouth and say a word. One night, after years of ignorance, he'd been invited to a party on the beach. He thought it was the opportunity of his life... that is, until they tied him to a rock to die with the fish. Finn has always been the outcast, the siren that wouldn't eat human flesh. He was always fascinated by the creatures so similar to him that roam on the land. So when he finds the drowning body of a boy, he can't resist the urge to drag him from the water and nurse him to health. That is, until he finds that he is losing his heart to the human. A vicious fantasy romance between land and sea, human and siren. *WARNING* This book is mature, and some explicit scenes are intended for those of 18+ years of age. Be aware of sexual content and foul language.Complete
Pinky Promise
" How do you start a story? Maybe by simply saying 'Once upon a time...' or 'In a far off place 'Yea that's how most would but not me. In fact the story happened so fast it gives me whiplash thinking about how my first love became more than my best friend thru trauma. Our story really doesn't have a clear beginning,all I can say is we have known each other for a long time. It starts with us as babies, and no not just any babies but in the womb not yet born. Who would have guessed I would have to spend my life dreading the day I was born or should I say we, Before you jump to conclusions no we are not brothers just really close friends. Our moms have been best friends since Junior high,so of course we were destined to meet each other. But living together is another story. Our moms have always been close, when my dad died my mom had to raise such a hellion of a child alone which was too much for one mother to bare,which is how we met again. It had been 16 years,You would think he would remember me,but i guess the memories of me were buried so deep. Because of one unlucky night,everything changed." Little did I know my time with him would be the most chaotic time of my entire existence,how do you tell your childhood best friend who has no memory of you and your forever promise that you love him when he shuts out the entire world for unknown reasons. How do you stay by his side when he himself can't accept that two broken souls were always fated to meet.How do you fix yourself and love your better half when you can't keep shit together. "I like you Gulf...I kept my promise...it has always been you", his raspy voice sending an echo into my head,making me tremble and fall onto the ground and my once clear vision had gone black. [Oh yea did I forget to mention we are both guys} Warning-May cause trauma and may not be written well,considering this is my first story,enjoy the possessive and clingy mew,while learning about traumatizing details. You have been warnedComplete
Beneath The Surface
I'm falling... Falling, helplessly and inevitably; completely at the mercy of the forces dragging me down. Having to trust in an entity's blind intentions and praying to God that they won't let me hit the ground. It's an incredible and horrifying feeling. A feeling that I live for. And I have realized that having something to live for makes you all the more scared of dying. (Constant uploads, and even more editing to older uploads)Complete
What if you committed suicide one day. After just one horrible day that set you off. You know, the bullies and the mean classmates who want to help but don't. And your crush refuses to help you one night. What if another woke up months later with no memory? You don't know who you are, nothing seems familiar. All you know is that something draws you to a boy who died months ago right before school ended. A lot of people care that he is dead, they feel responsible. Another boy catches your attention and you can't help but feel something for him. What if he's the answer to your problem but he won't talk about the dead boy? What if he does? Can you win over his trust and figure things out or will meeting him awaken something in you, you may or may not have known? or seen coming...
More detailsContent Guidelines