How does it felt?
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Ongoing28m
Last published Wed, Aug 15, 2018
I wrote this notes because I know you wouldn't care if I say it.
Incase you wanted to hear me.. You just have to open it.
And maybe, you'd know that once upon a time.. you had broken a heart of a girl that loves you more than herself.
A girl who's willing to risk her heart that's already dying. Yet, you still choose to break it beyond repair.
So here I am, giving my last words until the time comes.
Take care of yourself. I love you!
P.S. I'm sorry for not being enough. I hope.. I hope you're happy.
RIA
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Still editing. I apologize for a bunch of craps and errors. Still, thank you very much for reading :)
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