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Joellen

AvaTheStrawberry

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Reads 114
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Parts 8
Time 6m

AvaTheStrawberry

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This is just something that I have needed to get out. In October, I found out that my almost 24 year old Step Sister had committed suicide while back to college at Hobart and William Smith Colleges in Genova, New York. I am still really sad, and I am slowly recovering from shock. We didn't really know each other that well, but I had always wanted to get to know her and had always wanted an older sister to look up to, and to be able to talk to. Although, her mom and I haven't really gotten along, I still hoped. Her birthday was this month on the 15th, and her name was Joellen. The cover of this, was her. 

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Sorry for such a long intro, I just felt like I needed to explain all this and what it is and stuff. 

Please don't say anything mean in the comments, and try to be supportive please. If you're going to be mean, don't say anything at all. Thanks❤️All Rights Reserved

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Haru Haru

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