Join My Thoughts
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Last published Sun, Jan 1, 2017
Hello readers,
I'm really sorry about the fact that I haven't updated my stories in a long long time. This is because I'm going through a stage of depression.
I feel comfortable telling you this but not my mom and dad so here we go.
I started cutting a few weeks ago but I stopped the other day because there is no point in harming myself if it isn't helping. So I decided to write quotes or thoughts that match my own. And I did. So I decided to put them into a book and put the other books on hold until I am content and through my depressing sage of teenage life. (Note: not all teenagers have this.)
Come and join my thoughts.
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