Lotus (A Lavi x Kanda D.Gray-Man Fanfiction)

"I love the lotus because while growing from mud, it is unstained."

Kanda's life at the Black Order can but summed up to one thing; the lotus flower, a measure of the amount of time he has left to live. It does not however describe him as a person. "Unstained" is a fairy tale like wish to Kanda. This life, and his last one too, have led him to build up walls trying to block out everyone who wants to get close to him. These walls stay strong for a long time, hardening his personality and making him cold, but underneath the wall he is still hurting. Until one day, when someone finally tears these walls down and sees just how scared he really is, and how beautiful he can be. This doesn't mean the walls will disappear though, and Kanda is still a broken man. With past and present both conflicting; emotions like jealousy, guilt, and fear will run wild. Can Lavi find a way to hold them together, or will everything fall apart one flower petal at a time?