The Beginning, The End (On Hold)

I've always been shy and had a lot of trouble makeing friends and having conversations with people. I could and still haven't told my friends even my family most if not all of my secrets, I think I should start the journey out of the dark, deep and cold hole I began in , and start to give people a chance to help me.
i used to keep to myself for example i never told my parents how i feel or if my day is even fine , when they ask how my day has been
i reply with a "fine" but it is never fine.