What I Failed to Tell You

I was woken with a jolt as soft moans came from the room across from me. I knew the familiar voice to be my young Jedi Protector. Anakin. His cries grew louder, and they would soon be screams, like every other night. I threw off the blankets and went into his room. He thrashed in the bed, the sheets had probably been on the floor for some time. He screamed from his mother, jolting awake panting and sweating. He began to sob, not sensing that I was in the room yet. I sat on the edge of his bed, running my hands through his hair.
"Shhh... you were having another nightmare." I told him. He looked up at me with big, glassy, cobalt waters, shocked that I was in his room. "It was just a dream. Go back to sleep." I told him soothingly. He leaned forward, resting on my shoulders, shuddering. I wrapped my arms around his broad frame, stroking the back of his neck. He was soon asleep on my chest, and I laid him back down on his bed. I quietly strode towards the door.
"No. Padmè... wait..." His soft whispers from behind me. His voice was hoarse. I went back over to the bed, standing above him, with soft eyes. He pulled me down into the replaced covers with him.
"Stay with me. Please." He asked. I was facing him, our legs intertwined, my hands on his chest.
"Forever." I whispered, resting my head against his bare chest.

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I was rudely interrupted from my fantasy dream by the sun streaming through my window.
I sighed, brushing through my hair with my fingers.
It was a fantasy that could simply just never come true. I knew that. But I also knew Anakin didn't... so the only way to tell him?

Push him away... Hard.
I didn't want to, but I knew I couldn't hurt Ani any more than I already had.
Ani...