Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye. I used to think that ment something but now I know better. He said it and he never kept his promises that's why I'm where I am. It was always his fault and I would cover for him, pretend everything was OK. But it wasn't, still isn't, even though he's gone. Because I'm broken... Ocean Winter was your average outsider but then Derrick came along and gave her a taste of adventure. He was her first ever thing... her first of many bad examples. And when he was gone things were different but the things you loved never leave you for better or for worse. She was broken and nobody could fix her but what if she didn't need fixing what if she needed a new format not her old one. And Xavier knew that.