Free My Unwilling Thoughts
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Last published Tue, Feb 9, 2016
" Because of you my inability to trust is no more"!
I had tears continually streaming down my face. At that point I felt like a piece of shit for trusting this two faced loser. I could not believe I loved this fool. Words just could not describe the inner pain I was feeling.
" Look we could fix this, just give me a second chance".
Looking into his green eyes, I could see it lost the sparkle it once had, now its seemed dark and void. This scared me.
" No I'm afraid I can't. look at what you have done to me. I'm a wreck Noel!! My heart feels like it has shattered into a million and one tiny little pieces, and I don't think I can ever find the right glue to piece it back together".
Noel seemed distant, no expression on his face. He looked at me with a scowl and said
"Well I guess its safe to call you a slut".
With that he walked out the room and slammed the door, leaving me in an upright fetal position. Suddenly I felt a sharp sensation drastically spreading throughout my body causing me to shake vigorously and scream. Before I had snapped back into reality, It lasted for what felt like an hour.
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