Suicidal or Stupid?
Lexi_Ramsay
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  • Reads 375
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  • Parts 26
  • Time 3h 30m
Lexi_Ramsay
Ongoing, First published Jan 07, 2017
Mature
anxietydepressionhighschoolmentalhealthromanceselfharmsuicidalteenfiction
"I rubbed my thumb across my wrist for the hundredth time in the past ten minutes. I could hear the faint ticking of the clock in background. I felt each scar, new and old as tears fell down my cheeks. 

Suddenly the door slammed shut downstairs and I quickly threw on a sweatshirt wiping my tears. I couldn't let them see that something was wrong... I heard them talking and suddenly footsteps were coming towards my room."

---

"What the fuck are you counting?" I asked.

"The stars," he answered quickly then continued counting, "151, 152..."

"Oh god," I sighed, "What ever will I do with him?" I asked looking up at the sky.

Brian suddenly stopped counting, "Go out with me..." He answered casually.
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The Devil's Masquerade

5 parts Ongoing

Ever heard of the saying 'Don't dance with the devil?' Well, you better pray you don't have to Dance with the She Devil. ------------------------------------------------- They say history repeats itself in an endless cycle until humanity learns the lessons being taught. Just like an endless dance; People meet, waltz, fall in love, marry, and then die a tragic death. For thousands of years, humans lived and thrived with the naive belief that they were the only ones who existed. There were humans that did believe and sought to find out the truth. It is rare that a human is aware of the world that lives among them. Silent and ever watching as eternity stretched out before them. ------------------------------------------ UPDATED NOTE: Hey guys, I am so sorry I just disappeared for a while. Life went chaotic so mental stability was not in the plan for a long time. Now, this is going to be going through some adjustments because it has been so long since a lot of the original events that I planned actually happened in my life plus a lot of new ones. So, bear with me, I hope the ones who liked my book so far still stick with me as I struggle through this. Thank you so much and let us hope 2022 goes better in terms of my writing! I still cannot believe I started this when I was seventeen. I will be twenty-one this year. Yes, this has a new name, I will be tweaking things just a tad but not too much! Lots of love, Rose Mayday

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