Suicidal or Stupid?
Lexi_Ramsay
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  • Reads 375
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  • Parts 26
  • Time 3h 30m
Lexi_Ramsay
Ongoing, First published Jan 07, 2017
Mature
anxietydepressionhighschoolmentalhealthromanceselfharmsuicidalteenfiction
"I rubbed my thumb across my wrist for the hundredth time in the past ten minutes. I could hear the faint ticking of the clock in background. I felt each scar, new and old as tears fell down my cheeks. 

Suddenly the door slammed shut downstairs and I quickly threw on a sweatshirt wiping my tears. I couldn't let them see that something was wrong... I heard them talking and suddenly footsteps were coming towards my room."

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"What the fuck are you counting?" I asked.

"The stars," he answered quickly then continued counting, "151, 152..."

"Oh god," I sighed, "What ever will I do with him?" I asked looking up at the sky.

Brian suddenly stopped counting, "Go out with me..." He answered casually.
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