Im Not Okay.
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Last published Sun, Jan 8, 2017
This is my story , the things i want to say but I can't tell anyone . This is the way I want to let it out all out . But this is my first book on here so go easy on me . Here's a little preview of the first one .
People ask me what being in love like ?
You know what it's like ? It's amazing and beautiful. that person is like the best thing that has ever happened to you . Everything just seems to stop moving every time they smile or whisper I love you in your ear . You can listen to them talking for hours or even days years . Just the sound of their voice is like music in your ears . They're always there when you're at your darkest hour . You can't hear or think and you just keep crying . But they talk in such a soothing voice that the war in your head is silent . And that every time they kiss you it's like the first time all over again and their taste is like a new drug that you're so damn addicted to .
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