The fear is what gets us all, isn't it? The fear of getting caught, the fear of breaking the rules, the fear of being different. We all lead our lives because of it. I, however, feared the thought of being in love; actually, the thought of being loved. That feeling repeated inside of me for years, until I realized why, and the boy I fell for helped me find the answer. It all began with my father's first slap, but escalated to what I never thought would actually destroy the hope of happiness inside me: love itself.
How would you feel if you suddenly accidentally kissed your best friend?
Who was a guy?
I felt awful. I felt disgusted with myself when he stared at my with a unknown scared look in his eyes. I felt sick when he back away from me and ran away. .
I couldn't be gay.
I was most definitely not gay. .