I Hate You More Then I Hate Myself
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Last published Thu, Mar 2, 2017
Dan Howell and Phil Lester are the complete opposite of each other. Dan is a sweet, small, and innocent. Phil is a sarcastic, popular, well... Prick.
When the two boys cross paths, Phil will do everything in his power to get in Dan's head.
Phil just wants to tick him off. That's it.
But what if one day, Phil finds out something about Dan he wasn't supposed to?
Change of plans. Phil has to protect this boy at all costs.
Phil starts to see another side of Dan, and Dan starts to sees another side of Phil.
This story is mostly Dan's POV. It won't be Phil's unless said.
Pastel!Dan
Punk!Phil
Trigger Warning (Mentions of suicide, drugs, alcohol) This story will go into deep topics and will also have a lot of blood involve. Read at your own risk.
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