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when I was younger, I was terrified of the dark, I was afraid to walk to the bathroom at night. I was afraid to get the new pack of soda from my basement. I was afraid to turn on the light and expose what was once in the dark.
Now?
I live in it. I am afraid to open my eyes on a new day, to see the light. I am afraid to walk into my room with the curtains open.
I am afraid of something I once loved.
I am in love with something I once feared.
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