It Sucks To Be An Assassin

Assassin (uh-sas-in)
noun
1.
a murderer, especially one who kills a politically prominent person for fanatical or monetary reasons.
2.
( initial capital letter ) one of an order of Muslim fanatics, active in Persia and Syria from about 1090 to 1272, whose chief object was to assassinate Crusaders.
For me; number one. A killer, but not by choice. I was forced into the life before me, death as a threat to my friends and family, and the one person I cared about the most. It's hard to think when a gun is pressed in between your eyes, the person before you a moment's hand from pulling the trigger. The most rational thing to do?
Stay still.
Unfortunately for me, I was never the one to be rational. I was the one who threw sewing needles at the teachers, put a tack on the teacher's seat, and once pulled Billy Jone's pants down when he made a freshman cry. I had never been the one to procrastinate.