Rip Me Apart

Have you ever felt the pain and abuse of having a lover who doesn't even love you? And the worst part of it all is, you know that they have no feelings for you. But you continue to adore and admire the sensation you felt when they neglected you. You thought the way they betrayed and broke your heart was heavenly even though you knew deep down you hated it. But you want the abuse. You want the neglect. You want to feel the regret. You just want to feel something, if not love, then it has to be pain.
A scrawny, quiet, awkward and pastel-like boy, named Xavier Ballin is forced to live with his over excited and happy collage age cousin in San Diego California. His life there started off normal, like any other. Trying to avoid making friends at school since this would be his last year in high school anyways. But that all changed when his cousin brought home a tall spine-chilling and opprobrious man.

WARNING
This story involves a lot of language not appropriate for young readers. It also involves a good hand full of abuse, though I am against abusive relationships -and just abuse in general- this story contains a lot of guro which is also known as ero guro, an art form which involves erotic and violent scenes without showing pain or horror. Guro language, Mande language of Côte d'Ivoire. Blood fetishism-centred pornography. (ALTHOUGH THERE IS NO ACTUAL PORNOGRAPHY IF YOU WANT THAT GO SOMEWHERE ELSE YOU PERV XD)
So what i'm trying to say is that if you cant stand well with strange gore, drugs, abuse along with sexual abuse, then please don't read this. Thank you!