Falling Crazy In Love With You

Penetrator Chris is in love with Eva Mohn and it scares him so much. It was ridiculous and baffling how much it terrified him. It wasn't like he has never fallen for anyone before. He did love his previous girlfriend. It is just that this time, with Eva, it is something completely new. He feels completely and extremely raw whenever they are alone. He becomes so vulnerable and open whenever they are together. He doesn't put on an act with her. He is completely himself and she is completely herself. However, falling in love doesn't do any good for Chris. He doesn't want to love Eva. He wants to stop caring about her and think about her all the damn time. He wants to stop wondering what she is doing, who is she with, etc. He wants to enjoy life as he did before. He wants to not want her. He wants his old self back. But even though he wants that, he wants her more.