Her Broken Smile
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It's funny how some people don't see your pain even though you show it. But it's even funnier when you don't show it to someone but they notice it.
"It hurts" She said "It hurts so damn much" She said again as a tear escaped her eyes and down to her cheek.
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"You're saying that you wanna die but in reality you just wanna be saved.." -Unknown
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"My biggest mistake wasn't falling for you, it was thinking that you had fallen for me too.."
-Unknown
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"I don't get why I still think of you everyday even though I know that I don't even cross your mind. Not even once." -Unknown
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"It Sucks"
"What does?"
"Being a second choice"
"You know what sucks more?"
"What?"
"Not being someone's choice."
-Unknown
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"It hurts like hell when you know that you have to let go of someone, but you cant because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen..." -Unknown
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ALL RIGHTS RESERVED JUSIENX BEAUTY 2017
DAY RELEASED: JANUARY 21, 2017
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