I'd say I love you but I'd die when I say it to you (on hold)

My name is Natalie Winchester and I have this stupid curse where I die when I say I love you to my mate and when I first met my mate was in 1989 and now it's 2012 it's been 23 years since I met him.
Present year
Josh tells me he remembers everything after 1999 to this year and now that we're dating both our parents are trying to keep us away from each other but we're mates they can't keep is apart from each other.During the school year I never noticed that my best friend was my mate until half way through the school year.