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Recovery || Phan

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Parts 6
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Reads 302
Votes 36
Parts 6
Time 52m

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Dan experiences severe deep emotional trauma after events took a turn for the worst, one night at a friends party. That night would change his life and make sure he would never be the same. 
While Phil tries to be there for Dan, Dan just refuses to open up and pushes Phil farther away. 
Not having told anyone of the events of that night, Dan struggles to fight a war within himself, a war that he is surely losing the will to fight any longer. 
After friendships are put to the test, secrets are revealed and hearts are broken. 
Can Phil mend Dan's broken heart whilst trying to keep his together?

Note: Sorry for being super vague in my description guys, i like to leave a little mystery. Also this is my first phanfic ever so im sorry if this is trash and im trash.
TW://If suicidal thoughts, explicit descriptions of non consensual sex and smut trigger you then this is not something for you to read. This is highly mature in content and definitely not for young children. Also alot of swearing is used.All Rights Reserved

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The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE] by underscorekacie

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?

pretend (phan) by audrat

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

$Depressed | Phan {EDITING} by mi_cro_wave$

"Phil... I'm depressed" "Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-" "No. Phil. I have depression" "Oh." ~ triggers: -self harm (cutting) -depression + depressing thoughts -suicidal thoughts + suicide -gay slurs + other derogatory words -abuse -alcohol addiction -rape -murder ~ #144 in Fanfiction ~ completed - 25/9/16

Unrequited Love [boyxboy] 〈Phan〉【COMPLETED】 by b0sburning

Phil has a massive crush on Dan, and it keeps getting bigger with every passing moment of his life. Phil is always envious when Dan gets in a relationship or he hits on someone, but he's scared to tell him. Until he finally does. He didn't get the reaction he expected. Rejection. Dan soon realized his mistake, and that in his heart he had something for Phil all along. ----------------- Copyright to TheRealDanIsOnFire 2015 The story is in Phil's POV (point of view) unless I say otherwise. DISCLAIMER: I do not own Dan and/or Phil (unfortunately) or any ideals connected to them.

Love Online by Repressedemo_fangirl

When Dan first commented on Phil's YouTube video's, it never crossed his mind that he would ever become Phil's best friend. After months of hourly Skype calls and love filled Snapchats Dan starts to feel something for Phil. And when Dan starts to act awkwardly over a call, Phil starts to pick up on this and questions Dan. But how does one answer this question? How can he answer this without scaring Phil away?

Library Date|Phan (BoyxBoy) by kinky_howlter

The library. The only place where 18 year old Dan Howell can escape his (abusive) parents. His life has been terrible. Parents always fighting. Parents being drunk. What a happy life, right? It wasn't until one day at the library, a new boy named Phil decided to visit the library. After encountering each other whilst trying to grab the same book and start talking, they instantly realize they share things in common. When Dan decided to tell Phil this "cute" little thing couples do, Phil decides to do it, too. For him. For the boy he had just met in the library. TW: Abusive parenting, mentions of self-harm. Not very major, though. Genre: Fluff, some angst This is basically a Teen!Phan phanfic and an AU.

The Cute And The Confident- Phan by SHGeorge

[COMPLETED] Phan Au. Dan and Phil are in the same year at school and finally meet through a similarity, but how will their separate and different lives affect their friendship and could it blossom into something more? Find out how Phil overcomes obstacles bigger than what he should have to face at this age and how Dan overcomes fear of loving someone outside of his social group at school. Mostly fluff, some angst to make it interesting. There will be some swearing, but not major. This is based off of one of my one shots "You're cute" - go check out my Phan one shots if you want to. :P

Forever Yours, Daniel ✹ Phan (Sequel to House Plants) by klutzyvegetarian7

SEQUEL TO HOUSE PLANTS... Please read House Plants first before reading this. Do not continue to read this description if you have not read the beginning story. This contains SPOLIERS!! ************ (Phil's POV) After Dan's accident, he wasn't the same. He had healed properly, but his personality grew dark when the police began their hunt for the criminal who put Dan in the hospital. He never looked at me with the same passion he once did. We would kiss, we would have sex, but he was always upset. When I asked him what was wrong, he claimed there was nothing wrong. He didn't know I saw his wrists and thighs. ************* Warning: Self harm, suicide, and sex.

Worth Waiting For by whogirl1

Dan realises something - something he needs to tell Phil. Phil needs to tell Dan how he feels. Will either of them pluck up the courage to tell the other? And what will happen if they do?

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The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE]

"Phil Lester is the literal sunshine of my life. If I didn't have him in my life, I may have been dead by now. Every day still sucks, but whenever I'm with Phil, my heart remembers that life is worth living. The only reason my life is worth living is to be next to Phil. To see him smile, to hear him laugh, to listen to his voice, to watch him move...everything. Everything that he does brings the much-needed light into my life." Dan Howell has many struggles within himself, despite his successful YouTube career. The only one who truly helps him is his best mate, Phil Lester. Dan has been madly in love with Phil since the first day they met. However, Dan knows that it is inevitable that Phil will never return the feeling because he is only interested in women. As Dan attempts to battle his own demons, Phil seems to be quite happy and even ends up dating a beautiful girl. Unfortunately, this makes Dan's mental state even worse. What will happen to Dan? Will he ever confess his strong feelings for his best friend? Will he ever overcome the ongoing war in his head?