Minsan iniisip ko kung anong trip ng tadhana. Minsan ayos, minsan hindi. Biglang may ipapakilala sayo, pero bigla din naman mawawala. Minsan naman intay ka ng intay tapos hindi naman dumadating. Minsan naman nandiyan na pala sa harap mo, hindi mo lang napapansin. Minsan naman bigla ka na lang gugulatin. Pero ang malupit yung akala mo siya na pala, yung nakatadhana para sayo, pero magugulat ka na lang hindi pa pala.
Ang hirap intindihin, ang hirap makipagsapalaran. Wala kang kasiguraduhan. Pwedeng ngayon nasa tuktok ka, bukas naman nasa ilalim ka. Pwedeng ngayon lahat tama tapos bukas lahat na mali. Pwedeng ngayon masaya ka tapos bukas mamamatay ka na pala. Kaya para sakin ang pinakamahirap na kalaban ang tadhana, hindi mo alam kung kelan ka pagbibigyan at kung kelan ka pagtritripan.
Buti sana kung yung ihip ng tadhana sayo ay yung parang kila Snow White, Cinderella at Sleeping Beauty atleast sila happy ending. Eh pano pag mali ang ihip sayo? Posible kaya yung happy ending na inaasam mo?
She had done something unforgivable. Put me in danger many times, almost ruined my dreams, made me believe that love exists between us but it was all a lie. A lie brought by her desperation for love that was once taken from her.
And I don't want to sugarcoat her mistakes. She had done damage to me to the point that I felt like I was a compensation for all the pain she experienced in her past. She's taking it all on me. She became wicked and I couldn't recognize her.
But then... maybe we're brought together so I could show her hope. That kindness and love isn't always linked on what is over. That she could move forward, forgive herself and make her realized that she doesn't always have to get back to the past to be love in the present. The past was only there to remind us of the road we took and not to torment us.
Is it worth it though? Does she deserve my forgiveness after wrecking me? Does she deserve my love after all?
Status: Completed.
Date started: March 23, 2022
Date finished: August 26, 2022
Skyyryu