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The reason for my self preservation

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~"Amira, I'm doing what's best."

"For who mom? For you!?"

"Mira, honey. I'm trying to help."

"No, your not. Okay. Your not. Fine, I'll go, but stop trying to justify yourself to cover up the fact that this is for you and your reputation. It's a little too late for you to be acting like a good mom."~


Amira has been given multiple reasons not to trust people. It is because of this that she didn't have many friends. However, Even the ones who she held close to her eventually left because of the lack of trust she had for them. 

After this the world she had around her began to unravel. Her mother decided after a certain incident that it would be good for her to start over and after fully thinking it over decided to move. At first Amira was completely against the idea but then she  thought it was an opportunity for a new beginning. I mean people always talked about how moving would give them an opportunity to rebuild themselves, so why shouldn't she? 

Everything was going smoothly. Instead of having a few friends Amira surrounded her self with everyone. Being sure not to have a distinct relationship with anyone, but remaining "happy." She held in her opinions, and had to bite her tongue quite often but found that it was better this way and became more content with herself. Or so she thought until a certain 17 year old boy did something she never thought could happen. What would Amira do if others found out? What if Cain was really the first person in her life, to see through the mask that she put up?

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My mum always used to tell me what it's like to see your mate for the first time. She used to say that at that moment, everything around you stopped, that nothing else mattered. And nothing else would matter. If it wasn't for the little girl clinging to my leg right now. That little girl that trusts me with her life, that beautiful little girl that made me hold on and not give up on life. That little girl, whose father is standing in front of me right now. He's my mate. The edges of his lips curve and he looks up and down as if checking me out. "Long time no see." Are the words that first come out of his mouth that break the silence. ~~~~~~~~~~ Lexie is an Alpha's daughter. She faces a hard few days and thinks a night at the club will help her get through this. A few drinks won't hurt, right? At least that's what she thinks. Yet that night will change everything sooner than she would ever imagine. When the next day, her pack gets attacked, everything is chaos. Her mother and father are killed and her world shatters. She's forced to run away and leave everyone that she still has left behind. She thinks she has no one... that's until she finds out about another heartbeat in her body. Raising a baby on your own is hard enough. After a few years she finally meets her mate though and it turns out she knows him after all. How will she confess that her mate is actually her daughter's father? What will happen now? We don't live in a fairy tale where every story has a happy ending though. Real world isn't that easy...if you can call a world full of mystical creatures very real.