The reason for my self preservation
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Ongoing, First published Jan 30, 2017
~"Amira, I'm doing what's best."

"For who mom? For you!?"

"Mira, honey. I'm trying to help."

"No, your not. Okay. Your not. Fine, I'll go, but stop trying to justify yourself to cover up the fact that this is for you and your reputation. It's a little too late for you to be acting like a good mom."~


Amira has been given multiple reasons not to trust people. It is because of this that she didn't have many friends. However, Even the ones who she held close to her eventually left because of the lack of trust she had for them. 

After this the world she had around her began to unravel. Her mother decided after a certain incident that it would be good for her to start over and after fully thinking it over decided to move. At first Amira was completely against the idea but then she  thought it was an opportunity for a new beginning. I mean people always talked about how moving would give them an opportunity to rebuild themselves, so why shouldn't she? 

Everything was going smoothly. Instead of having a few friends Amira surrounded her self with everyone. Being sure not to have a distinct relationship with anyone, but remaining "happy." She held in her opinions, and had to bite her tongue quite often but found that it was better this way and became more content with herself. Or so she thought until a certain 17 year old boy did something she never thought could happen. What would Amira do if others found out? What if Cain was really the first person in her life, to see through the mask that she put up?

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