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21 year old Xolani Badu, a rising star on YouTube and social media, has just gotten accepted into one of her dream schools. FAMU was everything she wanted and didn't realize she needed. 
 
    A late blossom to bloom it seems but heartache, fear and uncertainty have all played parts in her journey. She realized she had to face her ghosts and conquer her fears, although easier said than done.

      Nearly 3 years after high school and a year and a half since the incident and she's still afraid to face him. How much confusion could be caused by breathing the same air? 


     Sonde Engel Basu has the world at his finger tips. The only thing that never strays too far from his mind is the brown skinned beauty who haunts his dreams. 
   

      He is originally from Miami, Florida. Even though it's a vacation spot, many people dont realize it isnt all beaches and sunshine. When you're not trying to end up on someone t-shirt, you ball because a scholarship was the only way some could ever go to school. It doesn't matter the sport when you trying to secure a bag. 


He has it all.  His dream school, his long time girlfriend, his grades look good and he's being asked about the NFL draft. What more could he want out of life? A chance at redemption? Maybe, closure? 
        
    Two streams who intersect into the same river,  the two can never flow separately it seems. Only time will tell what truly happens. 

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A disclaimer: Although the books main characters are based off of real peoples lives and have real moments from said persons life, everything in this book is completely fictional otherwise. Most locations, dates, names are all fictitious and if similar to real life are completely coincidental. 


Also majority of the past chapters are written in 3rd person and it switches to third person to better elaborate on each characters feelings.All Rights Reserved

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Finally Free by lulustoriesss

"I need you to be the put together one because I'm so fucked up. You've saved me." He whispers. "Carter, we saved each other." I mutter looking at him through my eyelashes. I lean into him, our lips not even an inch apart. "Sophia we shouldn't..." He looks hesitant. "Please, I need you." I almost started crying. "Please." I mutter one more time, my eyes begging for him. My body needing him. Sophia Carrington. She just moved from New York to California in search of a new life. When her life took a dark turn she's forced to leave everything behind. She just wants to finish her final year of high school, numb to the world, while learning to cope with the trauma she's endured. Carter Marquez. Newly single after being dumped by his girlfriend of two years. After losing his dad in a car accident he's fallen apart. The list of people he trusts is short, he hates letting people in. He's constantly trying to make up for his mistakes of the past, trying to find a new purpose in life. When the two of them collided, they instantly took a mutual disliking to each other. Misunderstandings and a dash of alcohol set a flame between them. Sophia hates the snarky remarks and stupid nicknames that leave his mouth. Carter thinks Sophia is just another trust fund brat. Soon their rivalry begins to dissolve and they learn that sharing the pain of their past can form connections they never thought to be possible. WARNING: This story contains mature topics such as sexual assault and drug addiction. Read with caution. Copyright © by lulustoriesss 2021

At First Sight by LilWitch726

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"I need you to be the put together one because I'm so fucked up. You've saved me." He whispers. "Carter, we saved each other." I mutter looking at him through my eyelashes. I lean into him, our lips not even an inch apart. "Sophia we shouldn't..." He looks hesitant. "Please, I need you." I almost started crying. "Please." I mutter one more time, my eyes begging for him. My body needing him. Sophia Carrington. She just moved from New York to California in search of a new life. When her life took a dark turn she's forced to leave everything behind. She just wants to finish her final year of high school, numb to the world, while learning to cope with the trauma she's endured. Carter Marquez. Newly single after being dumped by his girlfriend of two years. After losing his dad in a car accident he's fallen apart. The list of people he trusts is short, he hates letting people in. He's constantly trying to make up for his mistakes of the past, trying to find a new purpose in life. When the two of them collided, they instantly took a mutual disliking to each other. Misunderstandings and a dash of alcohol set a flame between them. Sophia hates the snarky remarks and stupid nicknames that leave his mouth. Carter thinks Sophia is just another trust fund brat. Soon their rivalry begins to dissolve and they learn that sharing the pain of their past can form connections they never thought to be possible. WARNING: This story contains mature topics such as sexual assault and drug addiction. Read with caution. Copyright © by lulustoriesss 2021