My names is Hayleigh and I was always the outcast, ever sense kindergarden. I've never had a 'best friend' You know that one quiet kid? That one that just sits in the back of the classroom and pretends to pay attention in class, the one that has to see guidance councillor every week for help, the one that everyone calls an attention whore because I need help? Well I guess you could say that, that's me. My parents never get along, I hate to admit it but I never smile, well unless I'm with him. The summer before school started had to be the best one of all. I actually had a summertime sweetheart, we were like two peas in a pod. I would sneak away just to see him at night, we would crawl on top of his roof and share story's about our life, then we would make out a little, my life then was like a dream that I never wanted to wake up to, he called me perfect, he would kiss all my scars and he told me he loved me and I believed him of course that was until school started up and well I became the high school freak again. My life is like hell and I just want to escape, actually I need to escape. I have to realize that you can't turn time back, it passes by and never comes back, summertime is over and I need to wake up from that dream.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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