hetalia x suicidal reader

the title says it all *note if you don't like gore then some of the chapters aren't for you!you have been warned!*
Suicide
Some slash their wrist,
Ingest a bottle of pills
Jump of a high rise building
Hang themselves or
Blow their brains off.
And in that moment
When they are bleeding to death,
Closing their eyes for the last time,
Hanging loose in the air,
About to let their weight drop,
And let that
bullet pierce through their skull
Are moments, they feel most alive.
Maybe suicide
Is ment for that
So very "special moment".
To feel alive,
Just once before
You cease to exist.