Cimmerian

I never wanted her in my life to begin with. But once I got a taste of her I didn't want her to leave.

I clutched her so tight, trying to hold on to her that I didn't notice what I was doing to her.

She was my only shred of sanity.
She was the only one who could pull me out of my darkness.

I could only hope I did not drown her with me.

Cimmerian - immensely dark and gloomy with perpetual darkness.