Not quite living

A story of my life up until now, or when "now" is when I finish writing this.
Disclaimer: everything in this is 100% true.
This story won't be a "family friendly" thing. I'm going to cover very real things that may be triggering.
This goes from when I was a kid in like pre-school to now.
This entire thing will be a mess and I promise that. It's going to be what I want to write when I want to. This is just so I can think, I guess. I'm going to be very honest in this. Some will simply be a "hey, this is how I'm doing" thing. Others will be more.
These are written as my thought process and only edited for extra words and stupid grammar mistakes.