i adore you

life was always confusing for me

I'm kinda confused. I want love......i want love to keep me from falling off the edge. But maybe that's the problem i have already fallen. I'm in the heat, because i did the worst thing i could done to myself. So now i'm here, alone......maybe it's supposed to be like this.

Stop being desperate i always told myself that. Over and over, maybe that's for the best. I don't want to hurt someone just because i don't like them. I'm not like that, i stay in place. Stuck in place. Just there, waiting, sitting, sleeping, crying, showering, writing, drawing, eating.

I walk down the busiest street, and look at my choices. There is not many, however deep inside all these guy could love me. However they don't, is it cause i look weird, i have curves, maybe because i'm loud. But tell me why you don't love me. I am going crazy, i'm turning sick. I'm extremely sick, because no one wants to love me. Someone told me that beauty isn't everything. Perhaps it is, plus you're probably just saying that for the sake of yourself. You think you're ugly and the only reason why you have that one person holding on to you is because of yourself. There's the problem you think that. It's kinda funny how i'm making love sound like a bitch, just because i'm love sick. As a human i say my love is for the soul, not the body. I still think that's true, just by this one new feeling. You're probably thinking the feeling of love. See you're wrong, it's the feeling of loneliness