Barely forgotten,Barely remembered

It's raining heavily. It isn't the soft,sodden,swollen drops of spring but it's a heavy one with several flashes of lighting and the rumble of thunder. My mind,like a huge pond of too many thoughts running in myriad direction question the sky about the cause behind its shameless cry!! Dude you should stop for today.. It's too much

The cafe,which I used to go there often is in front of me. It is almost full. I make my way through the rows of noisy tables of the cafe looking for a place to sit. At the corner there is a seat,unnoticed by most of the people,vacant.The clumsy looking waiter comes and notes down our order.

Here feels the void of life. I don't have a company but I used not to mind being left alone,enjoying my own company.Being lost in my own thoughts,I feel great. The waiter brings the order later than usual.I am definitely pissed by it but I don't show it.
Just as the waiter goes,among the crowd,I hear a familiar voice. I hear him beside me. My heart stops for a moment and start to pound heavily. I try to listen him but I find the faceless voice cheering and wishing someone's birthday. I find the noise louder than ever. His voice echoes in my head. I don't see him but I hear his voice. I hear his perfect,loving,melodic,smooth voice.His tone is still so expressive and but he isn't laughing loud, boisterous laughs and it clutches my heart and cringes in pain from panic and fear of a force unseen.