paulkendal
# What's Next?
**At 19, I was lost.**
Sleep until afternoon. Drink to numb the regret. Watch everyone else live while I stood frozen. Then I saw her-pure energy, a smile that screamed "What's next?" I fell hard. Panicked. Destroyed my chance. Kept drifting.
**At 20, I was discovering.**
Graduation forced a choice: keep hiding or take control. My brother-in-law appeared-strict, unflinching-and pulled me into a reality I didn't know existed. 5 AM wake-ups. Real discipline. The girl I thought I'd lost. For the first time, I was building something real.
**At 21, I thought I could see.**
The path stretched clear and bright. I had control. I had her. I had purpose. The drift was behind me-or so I believed. I didn't see the cracks forming while I was busy thinking I'd already won.
**At 22, I thought I made it.**
Transformation complete. The old me was dead. I'd escaped, climbed out, become someone new. Free. Different. Better. The battle was over.
**At 23, I fell back.**
Old habits crept in like shadows. Comfort pulled me under before I realized I was sinking. When I looked up, the truth hit: I hadn't moved an inch. I'd been running in place the whole time.
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This is the story of those four years. False summits and brutal falls. Moments I thought I'd figured it out, and mornings I woke up having learned nothing. The painful truth that transformation isn't a finish line-it's a choice you make every single day.
If you've ever felt stuck. Ever repeated the same mistakes while promising yourself this time would be different. Ever wondered why changing is so hard when you want it so badly.
This book is for you.
**When you know what you need to do, will you be brave enough to actually do it?**