Ambivalence Stories

Our journey believe it or not begins the very day we are born. Our parents, the moment they look at us are filled with so many emotions and aspirations which we can't even begin to comprehend, certainly not then and not even now. At the end its upon us to discover ourselves and chart of a course for our journey. Even though the journey might not be "perfect" and riddled with difficulties, finding the positive spirit and passing it on to others is what makes it worthwhile.

Danny is a guy. Drew is a guy. Guys end up together all the time. Especially when it's a fucked up guy who's only solace is this new American kid who skateboards and loves him unconditionally and they're totally gonna end up together. But it's never that simple though. Ever.

Petit poème que j'ai écrit quand j'avais de plus sombres idées et où je trouvais que ma vie n'allait nulle part. **For those who read and understand French** A little poem I wrote when I was having dark thoughts and where my life wasn't going the way I wanted.

"I'll recognise you, even if I haven't seen you," I repeated Drake's words. The words that he wrote in the email that I made me jump out of joy. In the email, that had given me a slightest bit of hope that he would love me. But as I watched him hug Kendra, my heart crumpled. I knew the meaning phrase 'breaking the heart and stepping on it now. He said he'll recognise me, love me, yet he was blinded by her beauty to see me. I was always Kendra to her, never did his ask about me, nor did he remember me. I was a fool to think he would forget about her. I wasn't as pretty as her, never will be. He loved her. I watched as my best friends hugged the man I loved. The smile that lit up his face, i could never give him that. And Kendra too, her pearly whites came into view, making me smile weakly. Maybe it was for the best. Sapphire Munroe has always loved Drake Adams, but he had always been attracted to her beautiful best friend, Kendra Morgan. His father's transfer results in him leaving for London, but not before he asks Kendra to write him daily. Soon, Both of them started to exchange emails. But unbeknownst to Drake, the girl that was writing to him, the girl that he had fallen in love with was Sapphire not Kendra.

With a curious mind, Collins Manchester begins to unravel many answers to those who question about our very existence. The twenty-one year old knows only the scraps of a universal puzzle many have been trying to put together for multiple years. Between two worlds, Collins has a difficult time comprehending which is real, or not. A world she's barely seen, or a world that has been lying to her for the sake of safety and security.

Where there is quietness there is emptiness. Where there is emptiness my darkness voyages. After voyaging my emotions are engulfed in doubt. Who can I trust? Who can I depend on? What's is life. Rampant goes my thoughts without any care in the world. But at the end of the day I have to be my own world. At times we all get caught up in thought, zoned out as people may say. This is something I composed while somewhere in that state as I decided to just write whatever came to mind. Enjoy :D

The door creaked open, and there he stood - Arjun Maheshwari, a silhouette framed by the doorway. His eyes, once the sunflowers that captivated Maham's gaze, now held a different story. "Arjun, you're back sooner than expected," Maham remarked, her eyes betraying a mixture of surprise and curiosity. Arjun, meeting her gaze, carried the weight of unspoken words. "There have been developments," he replied cryptically, his eyes revealing a turbulence within. His gaze fixated on Maham, seemed to be wrestling with a revelation. The premature return hinted at an undercurrent of tension, a deviation from the anticipated timeline that set the stage for a fresh wave of challenges and discoveries. In those initial moments of reunion, neither Arjun nor Maham ventured into the tempest of conversation.As the hours passed, the room became a silent arena where glances spoke volumes and the air crackled with unspoken tensions. "I found something, Maham," Arjun finally broke the silence, his voice tinged with a mixture of pain and urgency. Maham, pausing in her actions, looked at him with a furrowed brow. "Found something? What do you mean?" Arjun hesitated, as if grappling with the weight of the truth he was about to unveil. "Proof," he said tersely. "Proof that indicates your involvement, Maham, in something much more sinister." Maham's eyes widened in disbelief, her heart pounding in her chest. "What are you talking about, Arjun? We've spent months together. You know me!" "The truth has a way of revealing itself, Maham. It hurts, but I can't ignore what I've found" said Arjun. He came forward to her and caressed her cheeks feeling her sweet breath on his lips then he moved backward the tender moment, however, took an unexpected turn as Arjun's hand, which had moments ago caressed her, now delivered a resounding *SLAP*. Stunned, she looked at Arjun, his eyes now devoid of the warmth she once knew.

Is it possible / For a person to be so torn / Pain festers in their chest / Like a stagnant poison, / Feeding on and unraveling / Their soul's meticulous knitting? / ... We are realistic and reasonable / The heart, / This wild, pathological thing / Beating uncontrollably in my ribcage- / We must control it.

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Piper and Kegan used to be best friends. They loved spend all their time together and play lots of games; however, there was one game that Kegan started to have second thoughts about. Now they hate eachother Kegan wanting nothing to do with Piper, what will happen when they are forced to be in eachother's company? Will she be able to play Piper's games?

A sad weirdos way of expressing why he's sad and weird

Then, that's when I remember what It was like before her. I was nothing; I was nonexistent in the most existing way possible.

Ambivalence is a poetry collection that wades through the restless tides of love-its tenderness and torment, its longing and loss. Told through the dual voices of a boy and a girl, these poems unravel the contradictions of the heart: the way love can be both a refuge and a battlefield, a whisper and a storm. His words ache with quiet devotion, with the weight of wanting but never saying enough. Hers hum with defiance and yearning, the sharp edges of hope and hesitation. Together, they paint a love story that is neither whole nor broken-only suspended in the space between. COLLAB POETRY COLLECTION BY @__augustblue & @KallolDutta0

Cannon is a sweet girl but has lost the feeling of extreme emotions due to past trauma. She meets someone that shows her the world in a new light, the time she spends with him makes her see the world differently. With more color and life to it. The ups and downs they experience together are more than she's ever felt, and while she discovers new feelings and emotions that she hasn't felt in years, something occurs that makes all the things she feels, no they both feel, seem worthless. Read my book now:)

Ambivalence (noun) One word. Four syllables. One meaning. A state of having simultaneous conflicting relations, beliefs or feelings towards someone of something. Madeline returns to her hometown after years trying to escape it, but not for reasons she wanted. She is left heartbroken after recent events and finds comfort in a strange scenario, created by her grieving mind. That is until an optimistic boy enters her life, promising he can take away her pain.

Aurora was a simple girl, normal some would say. Perfect grades, looks, personality but she always seeked something more... Damian could be her definition of more. He was mysterious and charming, any woman's dream. Untill she gets to know him more and figures out maybe she wants to be her own definition of more. She wants to figure out this ambivalence for him. For her more. Update every Thursday! (I'll try) :D