Mentalhealthjourney cerita

This collection will be an ongoing project sharing the thoughts of a bipolar mind, following confessional prose poetry, existential reflection, and reflective stream-of-consciousness. It's a safe space for me to share my deepest thoughts with the world and attempt to capture both the highs and lows that come with a mind in flux. All of these words are my own, reflecting what I may be thinking on any given day. Some of the content may be offensive, crude, or even disturbing; it represents the raw, unfiltered reality of my experience, which, like any bipolar mind, is often challenging to control. Disclaimer: I am not a mental health professional, and this collection is intended solely as a personal expression. It is not meant to serve as medical advice or a substitute for professional guidance. Please read with care and seek qualified help for any personal mental health concerns.

❌You don't need fixing because you're broken.❌ ✅You need healing because you've been hurt. ✅

Ugh, everything just feels so... meh. Like, I'm just going through the motions, you know? Nothing really excites me anymore. I'm just a empty shell of my former self, wandering aimlessly, trying to find something, anything, that sparks joy. But it's all just a dull, gray haze. Even things I used to love feel like a chore. I'm just so... done. With everything. 😮‍💨

Some doors in a psych ward aren't meant to be opened- And some questions aren't meant to be asked out loud. This is the final piece of my eight-part collection, Barbed Wire Psalms- poems about survival, relapse, family lies, dark humor, and the places where grace finally catches up. Psalm VIII asks the last question: Who really gets to walk into your life-and who never earned the right?

I feel so lonely, I hate myself and my failures, though I want you to remember that I existed.

A diary turned series "Some people scream. Some people pray. I wrote things down - because speaking them out loud made them real, and I wasn't ready for that." -Ara Shaloh When the world stayed loud, Ara went quiet. In a life stitched with routine, expectations, and invisible wounds, she writes instead - one entry at a time, one heartbreak per page. From job interviews to mental breakdowns, silent bus rides to loud family dinners, Ara searches for peace in coffee, purpose in deadlines, and meaning in Mondays. This isn't a fairytale. It's survival. It's softness. It's strength you'll never notice - unless you read between the tears.

A horror mystery thriller about a young girl. The pain and horror she feels and the mysteries about herself and everything she feels around her. Zelda being so curious about the death of her dad Mr. Mark Williams and the search leading her to the depth of her life itself and waking up the memories that she herself forbidded from her consciousness.The hate for her twin sister Evelyn Fae Williams and her mother, Grace Williams consumes her and the hatred in her growing vastly. This story will give you chills as you go through Zeldas life. "A villian is only a villian in a heroes eyes"

Every step becomes a trial, each one heavier than the last. Progressing becomes exhausting. What alternative is left? To stop? Is it even conceivable? So to fall... falling could simplify everything, wouldn't it?

In the quiet embrace of the Cordillera mountains, where the wind carries stories and the earth remembers every tear, two souls found each other not in perfect moments but in broken ones. Phil Onise had once built his life around love. He believed in forever until the woman he loved betrayed him, leaving behind more than just heartbreak. He came to Baguio carrying silence like armor, grief like weight, and a past that refused to let go. Ziny Nemis arrived at the same place with her own scars, a dream shattered by betrayal, a trust broken by someone she thought would stay. She didn't come to heal. Not at first. She came to escape. But the mountain has a way of making you face what you carry gently, patiently, powerfully. They met not as saviors or soulmates, but as strangers walking the same trail one step ahead, one step behind, always finding their way back to each other. And slowly, healing began. Not with grand declarations. Not with fairy tales. But with shared meals beneath starlit skies. With hikes through pine forests and whispered conversations beside campfires. With honesty. With time. With choice. Because sometimes, the only thing stronger than pain is the love that grows from it. "Where the Mountain Heals" is a story about second chances, not just in love, but in life. It's about how we carry our pasts, but don't have to be carried by them. And it's about the quiet magic of the mountains How they change people. How they mend hearts. How they bring us home. To ourselves. And sometimes... to each other.

Happiness and Health, which one would you choose? Charlotte, a girl suffering from epilepsy, found herself stuck in a dilemma facing the choice of choosing another. Suffering from depression, she decided to choose happiness, but that meant she would never live on. And Nathan, her hallucinations in her epilepsy, the guy from the other world wouldn't let that happen...

Rising from the Shadows is a heartfelt journey through the struggles of depression and anxiety, following a young girl as she navigates the darkness within. From the moment she realizes that her sadness is more than just temporary to her search for help and the painful realization that those around her don't always understand, the story captures the raw emotions of her battle. As she makes difficult sacrifices to prioritize her well-being, she slowly finds the light again, proving that healing is possible. This is a tale of resilience, self- discovery, and the power of hope.

This poem captures a real and chaotic Sunday morning that spiraled from peaceful oatmeal to a full emotional meltdown, followed by church parking lot drama, a barking emotional-support dog, a scarecrow-looking staff member demanding a pointless car move, and the panic-triggering boss at the center of it all. It's honest, funny, dramatic, emotional, and told with the kind of humor you use when life throws nonsense at you before 10 AM. If you've ever had a day where everything goes wrong for no reason, this poem is your whole soul on paper.

Some days she remembers my name. Some days she remembers only the warmth of my hand. But every day, I remember her. When her mother no longer recognizes her, a daughter faces the slow, heartbreaking reality of Alzheimer's. The woman who once held a family together with love, strength, and grace is fading - memory by memory. This is a story about presence over recognition, about love that survives even when the mind cannot. Through moments of laughter, brief flashes of clarity, and the quiet ache of loss, she learns that real connection is measured not by memory, but by devotion, compassion, and the courage to stay. "When Memories Fade, Love Remains" is a journey of grief, hope, and the unbreakable bond between mother and daughter - a reminder that even as memories slip away, love persists.

A collection of poetry I've written over the years dealing with my journey through depression and self-harm. It's a mental health journey. (Also, I've Updated the cover! Final Edition) Trigger warning: lots of my writing is a bit dark - deals with depression and some mentions of SH.

A raw, unfiltered story of a morning that started with quiet sadness, turned into white-hot irritation, and somehow ended in the middle of a wild, unplanned parking-lot fiesta. This is the chaos, the comedy, and the truth of what it feels like when life hits from every angle - and you still stand in it.

Riding Elephants is the true story of a family ravaged by mental illness, one member following another, as recalled through the eye of the eldest daughter, now a licensed psychotherapist. Dr. Jennifer Cox offers a tale of love, grief, and finding meaning, and purpose in a past of perpetual heartache and struggle. As a debut memoirist and a psychotherapist she offers educational and insightful musings on the nature and experience of mental illness and far-reaching effects for so many. Robert is an appliance repairman in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma and the father of three children. He has struggled with Bipolar Disorder for many years, but has continued to essentially function as provider, father, and partner to Jan. That is until one day, in a psychotic state, he drives his truck into the front of the family home because "he just forgot to stop." Life is never the same for his family as they spiral into a life of homelessness, poverty, and further emerging mental illness. In this story, Dr. Cox reveals the devastating and immeasurable impact that parental mental illness has on their children and how awareness, education, and access to resources could prevent such tragedy.

Fifteen-year-old Amina grows up in a house filled with silence, arguments, and expectations she can never seem to meet. When she dares to confess her dream of becoming a fashion designer, she is forced to say the words that slowly begin to erase her: "My dreams are just dreams." At school, comparisons and quiet whispers deepen her insecurities, while at home, love feels conditional. As her brother leaves to chase his future, Amina is left behind with her fading confidence and buried sketches. This is a story about invisible pain, lost identity, and the quiet struggle to protect a dream that refuses to die.

Elena's world was shattered the day her brother, Noah, disappeared without a trace. Left grappling with unanswered questions and a heart weighed down by guilt, she spirals into a battle with self-harm, depression, and the haunting ache of grief. Her once vibrant life is now a quiet storm of silence and secrets she keeps even from herself. When her childhood friend Amira re-enters her life, Elena begins an unsteady journey of healing, hope, and self-discovery. Through therapy, journal entries, and the support of those who refuse to give up on her, she starts to confront the darkness within. But moving forward isn't easy when the past clings so tightly, and letting go feels like betrayal. In this raw and heartfelt story, Breaking the Silence explores the unspoken struggles of mental health, the complexities of grief, and the strength it takes to rebuild after falling apart. It's a journey of finding hope in the most unexpected places and learning that sometimes, breaking the silence is the first step to healing.

TRIGGER WARNING SORRY SOME OF THIS IS SAD I PROMISE IT GOT BETTER

Leaving the drinkers was the first brutal step, not towards healing, not towards clarity, but toward staying alive long enough to have a chance. This is the opening piece of *Carousel of Destruction*, a prequel cycle to *Barbed Wire Psalms* about the gravity of addiction, the people who kept spinning, and the moment you stepped off the ride.