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Aster Vallejo thought heartbreak would destroy her.
Instead, it returned her to herself.
After a quiet breakup with her girlfriend, Iris Navarro, Aster finds herself navigating the strange aftermath of still loving someone she no longer belongs to. Between emotionally chaotic college friends, lingering memories, shared playlists, purple hair dye, and conversations that mean too much at 2AM, she slowly begins rebuilding the version of herself she almost abandoned for love.
But moving on becomes harder when people keep orbiting each other:
an ex who still remembers the little things,
a best friend who feels more like home than anyone else,
friends tangled in old confessions and failed situationships,
and a girl who mirrors Aster a little too closely.
Set against campus hallways, rainy afternoons, indie music, anime references, and the messy intimacy of queer young adulthood, If I Stay, I Lose Myself is a story about identity, attachment, friendship, and learning that sometimes love is real-even when it cannot stay.
Because sometimes the bravest thing you can do is choose yourself before you disappear.