gaelwrites
Viktor, you have been my everything. My life, my love, my oxygen.
Thanks for that. I wouldn't have survived as a skater without you. To be honest, I wouldn't have done much as a skater without you. You were always my aspiration, my inspiration.
But, how could I be with you? The gap is just too great. I have admired you since I can remember. God, my childhood room was full of your posters. All I dreamt of was that you noticed me, finally, and you, for some reason yet incomprehensible for me, did. You did all that, why?
I keep thinking that the same way you came, you'll leave. That you will realize of how weak I really am, how not worth of you. You could possibly be with anyone in this entire planet, why me, if I am all flaws? I can't even skate properly without you.
So, before you break me, I'll run.
While I still have a chance.
[I published this however long ago and took it down later but I decided I want it to be up so here it is]