_Eyraaa_
"It's better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you're not."
Kisame Hoshigaki
There was a time
I tried to be everything I wasn't.
Soft when I was breaking inside.
Quiet when my soul wanted to scream.
Smile when all I wanted
was to disappear.
I thought maybe-
if I became what they wanted,
they'd stay.
They'd love me.
Maybe I'd finally be enough.
But pretending is its own kind of prison.
Because when they love the mask,
you start to wonder
if anyone could ever love
what's underneath.
And god-
that kind of loneliness
cuts deeper than silence.
But now, I'm learning:
it's better to be hated for the truth
than be adored for a lie.
Better to be alone in my own skin
than surrounded
and still feel invisible.
It's terrifying
to be real,
to be seen,
to let the mask fall-
but it's the only way
to find love that actually sees you back.
And I'd rather be disliked for who I am
than loved for someone I never was.