iikram14
I feel like I'm living the same day over and over again I do nothing but sleeping eating going to school leurning and thats it. And certainly because of covid. And like my friends don't tekst me anymore or call me like in the past, I feel like they don't like hanging out with me anymore like I lost so so so many friends and do you wanne know the best part I don't even know why.
for example, when it is a break at school they always tell me how the lesson was and then I really listen and really enthusiastic, but when I tell my day they drop out completely and then they just don't feel like it. without saying it I notice that all of them want to respond always only with hmm or yes and then I think oh okay I'll stop and then everyone is on the phone again. I just find it annoying I don't know what I did. Like it's breaking me and they don't even know. My day is like this every singel Day and I'm getting so f*ing tired of it. I wish I had friends that really care about me or really love me but I just don't have that kind a friends and you know that sucks it really does.
I used to have a best friend and I thought it would remain my best friend. we did everything together we went to school together early in the morning we went to meet up we went to sleep with each other's skin we cried together we did everything together everything. and in one fell swoop all of that is gone. and that because she has found another best friend. we had a lot of fights where she really hurt me with words our friendship became toxic and I said I couldn't take it anymore. and that's how we grew apart and don't even say hi to each other when we see each other at school. from strangers to friends to best friends to strangers again but this time with memories.