Dontbesuicidal mga kuwento

i felt selfish . i didn't know . that yesterday was the last day for me to be happy . feel normal , not to have a care in the world. it's too much . the pressure the pitty and the sadness . well u see the pitty makes me cry more. i dream of sitting in a big high chair looking at the sunset in a field of fresh sun flowers in a dress twirling around and my skin having a glow and my blond long curly rings floating above me while i dance to paper towns . but instead in my turquoise room in the dark thinking and thinking trying to think of reasons to be happy . faking a smile for my fake family . singing cardi b while i go out my room doing a crazy dance so it doesn't look like im sad and have been crying in my room.my only real friend is my pillow it soaks up my tears and never leaves me. like my dad does. the only thing i have in common in my dream is that i'm listening to paper towns .

Do You Ever Feel To End It All Well Here's Why Not To Don't Be Suicidal