rachelyuma
TRIGGER WARNING, DO NOT IGNORE!!
The project includes various descriptions of eating disorders such as anorexia and speaks openly about hard truth behind this illness.
None of the parts was written to idealise the disease, only to cope and show what it really is like to cut out food for 'looking better', what has become a trend in our century. If you feel like you're going to be safe reading my story, I wish you have a good time with it and remember - your well-being is always the priority. Reach out for help anytime you need it.
With all the support,
-rach
she broke me without ever meaning to
she was supposed to make me happier, make me fit in
she could never have become me, i'd known it
i was myself, she was utterly hers
i owned my mind, she did not even once
until it changed
and i no longer had the access to my own thoughts
my mind was all about her fantasies
having nothing to do with my will or my good
the world i lived in has been ruled by her from this very first moment i let her in
when exactly i can't know
i never meant to let her stay for this long enough
only to make me prettier
in a month or two
she meant the same thing to me though
as instead it was her that didn't let me stay in my psyche
so what i believe and what i really think is unthinkable even for myself
for very least, the truth
what i have is her
what i see in the mirror is her
what i think
is my entire life