Annoyed_brunette
"He really has changed..." She said mentally before setting the side of her head on the wall of the jail cell many called a bedroom, her eyes empty, and broken, face blank, she really hadn't thought about what she had gotten herself into.
Too many mistakes, too many reasons to leave, too much hate, and too many regrets, she couldn't save them, anyone, she was useless as a shinobi, a faliure as a human being, and a living mistake.
She never thought it would hurt this much, and maybe if she did she might have still gone with him.
Why?
Maybe to punish herself for being so useless.
To try to understand her once beloved?
Or, maybe it was just the thought of leaving is what made it worth while finally being able to feel the adrenalin fearing for your life everyday.
Everyone has their regrets.
But her's costed herself more pain than imaginable.
And there was nobody left to save her.
And even if there was HE wouldn't let them.
She would never be safe.
Everything she does causes a butterfly effect, and she's tired of it.
She just wants it all to end.
She hopes to finally die as she is no longer a whole human, she was empty.
She hasn't felt happiness in a long time but, he just makes it worst.
And his existence made her questions never change, why was she born, and why is she alive?
She knew that she would fail no matter what because that was just the luck she had, she had told them all that she would fail and she was right, she failed again....
"If I were reborn can I please be the girl that is loved, that's all I've ever wanted..." She said begging on her knees in front of the staute of the goddess still standing tall after over a thousand years.
All she has ever known is being unwanted.
She just wants to feel something, other than emptiness, sadness, and failure.
But she knew that not even death being able to rid her scars, nor her feelings.
She just hurts them with her existence.