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Jasmin thought college would teach her how to read X-rays, memorize anatomy, and survive impossible exams. She never expected it to teach her how to catalogue all the things that almost happened.
Almost saying I love you.
Almost reaching for Delancy's hand.
Almost believing that loving someone could be enough.
Between sleepless nights in Radiology, failed quizzes that feel like the end of the world, hospital duties, and chasing a future that always seems just beyond reach, life becomes an accumulation of almosts. Almost passing. Almost giving up. Almost becoming the person she imagined she would be.
Through it all, there is Delancy-her best friend, her safest place, the person who witnesses every victory, every failure, every terrible boyfriend, every shattered heart, and every version of Jasmin she doesn't let anyone else see.
The closer they become, the more impossible it is for Jasmin to mistake what she feels for friendship. But Delancy is straight. And Jasmin has spent years perfecting the art of pretending, convincing herself that some loves are meant to be carried quietly, asking for nothing except to remain.
Then Maia enters their lives, gently unsettling the careful distance Jasmin has built between love and confession. The things left unsaid begin to weigh more than the words themselves, and the life Jasmin has settled for starts to feel unbearably small.
Some lives are measured in milestones.
Jasmin's is measured in almosts.
Almost brave enough to tell the truth.
Almost letting herself be seen.
Almost believing she deserves to be loved back.
An Inventory of Almosts is a coming-of-age novel about the invisible grief of loving in silence, the friendships that become home, and the quiet ways we abandon pieces of ourselves to protect the people we love. Because sometimes the saddest thing about an almost isn't that it never happened-it's that you spend years wondering if it ever could have.