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You know that feeling like the world is hiding something from you? That you wake up every day carrying the weight of unanswered questions - mysteries that whisper at night, secrets that you know will shatter you once they're revealed?
That's how Eavha Muiris Fitzgerald lives. She's the chief engineer of a big cruise ship that never stops sailing, but inside the steel body of that vessel, she's the one drifting. Her mind is constantly restless: why was she left behind, why was she chosen to be hurt, why does everyone she ever trusted seem to hide a knife.
She gets wounded over and over. Sometimes in the form of calls that never get answered, sometimes in "missing" documents, sometimes in the eyes of people she once called family. And with every wound, with every time her heart bleeds, she still chooses to forgive. She still chooses to believe that people can change. That there's redemption for everyone ,even for the ones who broke her.
Then Nikolai Kazimr Akim Derzhavin arrived.
On paper, he was just the 4th Engineer. The new guy. But the first time Eavha saw him in the engine room, sweaty and arms crossed with that easy grin, it felt like a chain around her chest finally snapped. Nikolai became the answer to questions she couldn't even voice. He became the silence amid the roar of the engines. With him, Eavha remembered how to laugh without forcing it. How to sleep without being haunted by ghosts of her past. With him, things became tranquil.
But wounded hearts aren't perfect.
They reached the night where they collided. Words were thrown that couldn't be taken back. Accusations they both regretted after. Cabin doors slammed shut with tears.
Most people would give up there. But they didn't.
Instead of jumping into the sea and letting the dark swallow them, they swam back to each other.
It wasn't easy. It wasn't fast. But with every "sorry," with every "let's try again," with every night they chose to stay instead of leave, everything got lighter.