ZurriyatJafri
Diary Entry
Today... everything shattered .
"It's forbidden-from the beginning !" he yelled .
His voice still rings in my ears-sharp, fiery, final .
His eyes burned with fury. I've never seen him like that before .
But me ?
I was cold. Ice cold .
Like water trying to tame fire .
He was rage. I was silence .
We were different-always have been .
Still, I tried to belong to him .
Tried to mold myself into someone who fit .
Because I was in love with him .
Madly. Blindly .
Drowning in thoughts of him .
I asked him with every ounce of control I had, "Then why did you begin it? You were the mature one. Why did you start this ?"
He looked at me like I'd betrayed him, like I'd flipped the story .
His jaw clenched .
His hands were trembling, the veins stark and angry .
His eyes-red .
With anger, yes .
But also... regret. Maybe even love .
Though he hid that part like it was a crime .
He tried to justify it .
"It was foolishness... fun in the beginning. I made it clear before it went too far ."
But it had gone far
I told him ,
"It wasn't the beginning when it happened . We were already deep in it. Too deep to pretend otherwise ."
And then ...
He straightened his shoulders .
Declared it was over
"I have the power here. I'm ending it. The boundaries will be reestablished ."
He clapped his hands, like closing a deal. Like we were a meeting agenda .
My heart broke a little more .
I asked him ,
"What about the moments we shared? The ones with no boundaries? What about all of that ?
You call it forbidden, but wasn't it real? Isn't it real ?
Be brave, Christopher. Take a stand for us. Don't be a coward ."
I knew I was pushing him, and it only made it worse .
"Cowardice?! It's WRONG! WRONG! WRONG !"
He stomped .
Slammed his desk
Threw his files everywhere like they were made of our memories .
And then... I just walked away .
Didn't turn back .
Didn't answer when he called .
Every step out of his office felt heavier than the last ....