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They say you only fall in love once, but that can't be true...
Because every time I look at him, I think of you.
I had the perfect love once. We had everything-all the love languages, all the promises, all the future plans. We were it. But life made him choose between his family and me. And he chose them. He left to chase his dreams abroad, leaving my heart shattered into pieces.
It took me a whole year to pick up the broken pieces. I finally met someone new. He is good, he is kind, and what we have is healthy and peaceful. I should be happy. I am happy.
But why is it that whenever he holds my hand, kisses my forehead, or says "I love you"... my mind drifts away?
Why do I keep comparing? Why do I keep remembering us?
I'm trying so hard to love him right, but my heart is still living in the past. I'm with him, but I'm thinking of you.
And the worst part?
I can't even say the words "I love you" without lying.
Because... when I'm with you, I'm thinking of you.